HYC #9: Halfway there!

I'm not sure what's been up with me these past few weeks. For the first month and a half, I was SOOO excited when Tuesday rolled around. Especially because it came so much sooner for me than some other people, I was always way ahead, waiting up late for Mr. Linky to appear. Even during most of terrible April. But these days I'm having a harder time sticking to blogging, for some reason. I'm trying to get to the bottom of it, because I know there's a very direct relationship between my faithfulness to blogging and my weight loss success. It's not a lack of time, really, although that would be an easy excuse. Ah well... here I am doing this one, and only a day late.

This is the halfway point in my 169.9 or bust May challenge, so it's time for some serious reflecting: The past week was... okay. I've been sticking to it all much better than in April. I've been eating almost all of my meals at the cafeteria or at home, so they're very well-balanced (if not delicious). 5k training especially has been very constant, and I've mostly kept to the MEC abs routine too. Weight training has gotten a little awry, since I changed up my schedule to get ready for the 5k, but I've still done at least 2 workouts both of the past two weeks, and I can get back on a more normal schedule soon!

My biggest problem, as always, has been snacking. My sweet tooth has been wreaking havoc on me for the past week. It's time to get really honest with myself and accept that it's now-or-never time. If I can't get a handle on the snacking, there's no way I'm going to be able to get into the 160s before the 28th. I'm not beating myself up over it--I've made some really healthy exercise choices in the past two weeks, and I'm proud of that. And they weren't binges... just small amounts of several different sweets on a fairly regular basis; that's progress. Plus, I've still lost a little weight. And... there's still time to lose the rest of it, I'm confident of that. I just need to decide whether achieving a big goal is more important to me than being able to eat sweets every day. It's only 14 days, after all. But I can't be wishy-washy. If I really want to make the goal, I need to buckle down and have a couple of near-perfect weeks. It's possible--but how bad do I want it?

Bad. Last night I dreamed that I looked in the mirror and my muffin-top was suddenly gone. It could be a premonition. These next six pounds could be it. Even if not, they'll definitely be another pants size. They'll definitely be a new skirt and shorts for the field trip. They might even be a really pretty tank top. You know what that means: It's Gap.com time...

I can't actually buy these things, since I'm in Korea, but perhaps I can find something that approximates them. If my boobs miraculously shrink to a B, that is. This is what I want to wear when I'm traipsing around on an island in the 70 degree weather. I must remember that.

Dear self,

You can do this. You really can. Sure, snacks taste great, but stick to the fruit for two more weeks. If you get down to 169, you'll be 15 pounds away from goal. 15 pounds! You'll weigh less than you did sophomore year of high school. And you'll be skinny and feel confident, and be able to have a good time. You'll want to take pictures, and you'll be able to look back at those pictures and not cringe at your size. That'll be the best part. Think about that, everytime.

Alright, I hope the rest of you are having a wonderful week, and accomplishing all your May goals, especially my compatriots in Swizzlepop's May Exercise Challenge!